Im Bored Lar.

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Koky... so, bored. Like I find hardly anything entertaining anymore. Movies, books... parties... people = all boring! So fed up of hoping for betterment. Actually you know, the whole world pretty much sucks and we know it. It's hope for a better tomorrow that makes you feel better. Happiness is directly proportional to amount of Hope instilled.

And Hope itself is a lie mankind came up with because it's based on a belief that is based on zero logical thinking and caused by wants rather than necessities. So there is like nothing great about life at all ey bunebveynee :P

Atm, (AT THE MOMENT) my life is very salhi. I'm not a id anymoreeeeeeeeeeee in the eyes of family FINALLY. I'm being totally honest with my family and I no longer feel like I have anything to hide. Pluzzz I'm taking a break and spending more time on broadening my literary mind (By the by, Perfume - The Story Of A Murderer is as excellent a movie as the book is in my humble opinion and if you disagree I don't care :P) ... kekeke... well maybe not spending as much time doing academically oriented activity but... certainly not clubbing and stuff.

Perhaps its just laziness. Quite possible actually.

Maybe I just need to feel alive again. And I'm numb to the usual remedies of clubbing or partying (same thing nar? LOL) ... or hanging out, or sports... or doing dangerous and exciting new things. I need a new rush. Or I need something to rejuvenate the feeling perhaps. Its been a long time since I've really been in love.

Again ekkala haijaanu dho. Ekam you know, it's such a good feeling when you think the whole world is revolving around the two of you, and the sun is that much brighter now and the flowers never looked better... when he/she/it/they is around its like nothing else you've ever felt before? Remember what it was like to be sixteen and hopelessly infatuated?

Ofcourse, older and wiser its much harder for that to happen if at all. But it was so nice to be so young and oblivious. It was so nice. The closest thing we can feel now is the intimacy that comes with dating and spending lots of time together and taking it to higher levels... when too much communication becomes unnecessary because you understand each other so well. Thats a wonderful feeling too.

Life's like an hourglass, glued to the table... and there's nothing I can do to change the course or the speed or the way the sand flows.

The greatest dilemma I am facing nowadays is the impending question 'to curl or not to curl'? I wanna but I think nugulheyney. Don't laugh - tis a matter of life and death. (All suggestions and comments on the matter are encouraged and welcomed) :)